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bah, couldnt think of a title so i left a dot there...

wow how do people find time to update blogs. how do people say such interesting stuff.. i find i can never do that. stop trying to sound intellectual. stop. stop pretending. just wanting people to read my/your blogs and go wow, this person is cool. is that person showing his/her genuine self? it is nevertheless a blog for all to see. one will one to leave an impression in the reader's mind.

i consider myself introvert. and i believe many regard me one too. i love to read. and put myself in that story. in that life. breathing in that air. but of course i'm not saying one is necessarily an introvert if one loves to read. no. i like to write journals. things only i and God will ever know. i won't even speak it aloud to myself. for fear of a listening ear somewhere. but then i don't write very often. when the thoughts come, they flow so rapidly that i cant catch them. cant put them in writing in time. so i dont write. so i dont talk about it. where does it go. my memories. so i fear. fear that my memory may fail. and i would forget happy and sad times. memories contribute to the building up of my character. but then i think, maybe then they wont be so important anymore right? what matters is what happens now. that God is with me now. and always.

but now it's exams at the top of the list. don't like it, but dont have a choice. i've decided, that after all these are over, i'm gonna read read read.

detective stories are interesting. Agatha Christie.. (Hercule Poirot, please.) Mary Higgins Clark. some friends recommend Dan Brown. dont like romance novels. eew. the ones i like, i dont know the catergory for them. some fictional life story. no, not those about some modern woman who lives by herself or with friends in an apartment in some city, falling in and out of love blah blah blah. not my taste. abit more mellow perhaps. inspirational maybe but not always. like The Gazebo, if i'm not wrong. i liked the movie The Horse Whisperer. the book was abit different.. but whatever. so i spend a long time in the library just looking for a book that's "crying out" to me.. hehe. nothing supernatural whatsoever.

right now, it's food chem. organic chemistry. or genetic control and inheritance. or trigonometry. haha. ugh. i'm gonna pull through this.

auntie pauline gave a few of us who just got baptised a book each. i chose the One Year book of Bible Promises. daily stuff. by Ruth something. nice. Seek ye first the kingdom of God. a great reminder.