yo i'm jobless. but just got a super temporary one. admin stuff. ah whatever.

the year's coming to an end. yikes. that's really fast. just makes me think about growing up. which is rather dreadful actually. since i can't stop time, i better cherish this moment. cuz it's time to grow up. cuz most of the time i still feel like i'm a kid. immature. kid. argh. i tried to convince myself that my behaviour and attitude will show my maturity. but.. it showed otherwise. bah.


heard this song on the radio and liked it. presence of one f word but of course i wouldnt have heard that since it'd be censored. i just found the lyrics. the song is "Boulevard of broken dreams" by Green Day.


I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
....

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
....


during christmas i became anti-social. which is not difficult to become, cuz it's me. the old me? i guess it has never gone away before. ah, i was fine with that, though. cuz there are times when you just want to be left alone. really. maybe i just dont like huge groups of people. being in one, i tend to be quieter. it was also the turn-out of events, didnt make me want to talk cuz i went into a bad mood.