here i sit in the office, 1hr 55mins away from leaving this workplace, perhaps for ever. so i rush around a little, throwing away junk paper, leaving some notes regarding the folders, leaving some instructions to someone regarding the meetings i were to help prepare for. It's been almost 3 weeks already. worse still, it's rather sad to go this way cuz it's a replacement, not the end of my temp duration. rather demoralising. no point exchanging phone no.s or personal email address, though. what's the point. not like we're very close. maybe that's why one in my situation will feel sad..because there wasnt enough time to even grow close to someone. but it'll be even more upsetting that way right?
seems a little ridiculous to feel so sad. like i'm making a big fuss out of everything.
It just makes me feel so much more useless than i ever felt i already am. that I am just not good enough. where's the gift? the talent? what is it? as far as i know, there is nothing. ugh. maybe this whole thing is trying to tell me that this is NOT supposed to be where i'm going. that i'm not suited for this. okay. well.. so.. i can cross this option out? can i can i???
side note: I think the song "I Believe" from the Korean movie really sounds so sad. how tragically perfect when the ringtone plays while i'm thinking how sad this all is. and the owner of that phone didnt seem in a hurry to answer the call.
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