judging people

recently i've become very judgemental, and i am still clueless as to how i developed this, what had contributed to this. i guess i've always been judgemental, but much more lately. it has made me an extremely horrible person, and made me quite miserable. and i have to add, it has also made people around me worried and miserable. And i didnt realise this mistake until i made people upset. i was trying to make things the way i wanted them to be. MY perfect world. furthermore, when all others laughed or smiled in response to something that deserved that response, I hardly even smiled in my heart or mind. it was just not funny somehow.

so, much apologies to those i've expressed any annoyance or anger. i know i said i have decided not to bother about what they do, knowing i dont have the right to judge. that's why i didnt say i forgive you, because i cant even be annoyed with you. so pls dont reproach yourself.