morbid dream

I knew I needed to do something on the net but I can't remember what. I know it was to be done before I go for leaders' retreat. hmm..

New people entering into my life. Can I accomodate more friends. Can I handle it. ..putting down certain things too, which are wasting my emotions. so that's good i guess.

I had a dream yesternight. It was quite weird. but seems like all dreams are weird. Anyway, it started off with this house which appeared in an old dream. not that the dream was a repeat, just revisiting the place with in a different story. there was the same old man whose supposed to be this wise old man who apparently is a very good band conducter. Japanese-like. the location is like that of the coffeehouse near church, we call it "Elvis".
i was with some ppl. Joel was there. then the weird part comes when we walked on, towards church. i feel it's abit scary, maybe funny to some. but in my dream it was a serious atmosphere. Joel became, or was sort of infused with an animal spirit or something. that 'essence'. but he couldn't walk properly and needed to drink alot of water, and i was trying to get him to drink properly. but he was making a lot of noise. and so were the other 2 ppl with me. same thing happened to them but they need lots of water. the noise was greatly annoying the old guy i mentioned earlier. at this time, our location was outside 7-11. apparently the old guy sent out a few assassins to kill us. because we supposedly were people with some strange superpowers but we didnt realise out potential yet. (that is ridiculous and funny.. haa..) I was the only one okay, so i was trying to drag all 3 of them to church where it might be safe. There was another old man, like OUR sensei or something, then protected another one of us and brought the person to church by a less conspicuous route. (feels like it's ninja turtles with all the senseis..) so, somehow we all managed to get to church. but it was not safe there. the assassins broke in easily. I was trying to hold the door, or fight them off, but it didnt work. the 3 guys I dragged to church were lying on bed, wide-eyed, dazed. I think they were sleeping with their eyes open. imagine that, oblivious of danger. stupid animal-things. it seemed they might pass off for being dead, so the assassins might not bother about them; pointless attacking dead bodies. but then Joel stirred in his 'sleep'. so the assassins killed them all.. ugh. no blood though, i think. Just, dead. The old man and the other person didnt survive either. (From this moment on, it's like watching a movie, not seeing through my eyes, but seeing myself) But they wanted to capture me. then I struggled free and jumped out of the window in an attempt to kill myself. one of the assassins jumped out to save me; he can do those flying stuff so he wasn't jumping to his death. but i made myself go free, and fell down dead. then I saw my ghost wandering, crying, and all depressed, while passers-by surrounded my dead body. Last thing of the dream, my ghost was walking towards a shop that sells coffins.
Actually from the capturing part, that is, from the movie part too, it was abit like a Hongkong movie. Haha watching too much tv. even the coffin shop felt hongkong-ish.
I don't know why i typed out the whole thing.. ugh, so full of death.. I missed a small detail.. but that doesnt matter la.. just enough for me to know. haha. sigh, that horrible band conducter.