101th post!

calmer than i have been in the last few posts.
this week was good, in the sense that I attended every lecture, every lesson. did, or at least attempted, every tutorial. I paid attention. Well, for 102lecture I suddenly became sleepy in the last 20minutes. Really, Suddenly. But then for 103, I did not skip it like Yan and ZQ did. I went for it alone. Tutorials went smoothly. Even for 103. Though it should have been 100% right to predict that Prof Wilmouth would come in, he didnt. It was the much-loved-by-(Singaporean)-students Dr Liu. I was, for once, ready to face Prof W, ready to attend his lesson because I really tried doing the tutorial.. and then, he didnt come. I was so amused at this, at how things work out, that sometimes it is really quite.. well, amusing. I guess I submitted to that fear of him, and was just settled into that miserable dread, and wasn't all jumpy.. just quietly waiting for It, anything to happen. But it didn't. I just really think something's workin' here. something that caused this to happen. Could it be..? Just feels like, once I changed, things around me changed too. I did the work, I was somewhat prepared, but then I didn't have to go through what I thought I would. And what I thought would happen, was the very reason I was motivated to do the work. hmm..
Anyway. And on Wednesday I studied. Instead of waking up at 12noon and then only Try to study til 4plus or so. I woke up 10am. earlier, but I was actually late according to my planned schedule. but anyways I studied. yippee. and practised Lindy. Whoopee.

Still, the pace is still slow. And late in its coming, 'cause previously, there wasn't any 'pace' at all. I need to catch up. The next week's coming. Be good.

Oh, anyway 103 (Organic Chem) practical was just plain disgusting. Smelling things. Making esters and smelling them. Smelling acids, which are just disgusting vinegar-smelling stuff. The intensity of the smell is the killer. Eww. As for the esters, not Too bad. Just weird, I guess. You're just smelling some colourless liquid but see (smell) the different aroma/odour/smell that just come out them. The first was like banana candy, like the yellow antibiotic liquid. Then we had wood. Absolutely, totally the smell of wood. And it was strong. Another one, I think it's specifically cedar wood. But I think I should doubt the keenness of my sense of smell. Haha. Oh, another one smelled Exactly like the bubble-blow-up thing we used to play when we were kids. We have that short little yellow straw, and stick a gum from a tube at the end. Then blow, giving this bubble-balloon thing. yeah. Anyway, not only were we feeling sick from sniffing stuff, it was just plain discouraging when a old labtech guy kept insisting that we shouldn't have done the higher carbon acid and alcohol, because the smell wouldn't be as strong. Like, did he expect us to redo or something? Even worse, he wasn't right in the end. Ha. The smell was as strong as when you stuff pure-ammonia-soaked cotton wads in your nostrils.

So. everything's good now, for now. Anyway I'm happy now too, because I played with my niece today. My cousin's daughter. She's usually really very shy. But she was just thrilled to have a room to play in, I guess. So cute. :)
Growing up in mum's side of the family, I see Grandma, uncles, aunties, much-older cousins and younger cousins and a few 'middle' ones like me and my brothers. And suddenly today, I notice we have a whole new generation. The niece I mentioned, and her new baby sister. Another one on the way for Ivy. Woah. We're getting even younger ones. We will hear the sound of babies crying, again.
Dad's side of family is younger I guess. There's quite a handful of young cousins. Family gatherings, there's like this nursery of kids running jumping around and laughing at everything.
Back to Mum's, the younger cousins are growing up too. shuashua (Joshua) is much better behaved, and then he and Alcina were actually talking together about school. You don't hear that kind of conversation when they were younger. They would be just, quarrelling and fighting over computer games. It is just interesting to observe the changes in these kids. And sometimes I even find that I myself changed in the same way too.

I think about the future, IF the earthly world doesn't end by then. When we ourselves marry and have our own families and extended families, we just meet up with this boundary of family members. Like, I don't really see my mum's cousins. actually, hardly ever. Only this year, I discovered a distant cousin who's from TJ too. But This family is so big. In my generation, I have so many cousins. And no matter how crude I think the dialect Hokkien is, the warmth and the hustle and bustle that comes from this huge extended family is overwhelming and hard to forget. I wonder if I'll continue to see them. How do we handle everything. If we want to meet up often. There's them, and then our own families, and then friends. And within friends, we have friends from all different places; pri sch, sec sch, jc, uni, church. Argh, too many!
Oops thinking too much? But I think it'll come subtly.