When the anger passes, all that's left is sadness. And Every moment of past failures, no matter how big or how small, comes back to the mind. Every single moment. Things overlooked, although nothing big happened, making it look like no big deal, you know that IF it happened, it wouldn't be something trivial. That's one of the worst, because I failed to pay attention to the small, yet important, details.
When the anger passes, there is nothing directed towards the aggressor, but only towards myself. It is ALL my fault. Ultimately, I wouldn't have needed to go through all that if I hadn't make that decision in the first place. I made the call, and now I suffer the consequences of my actions. Cause, and effect. Perfectly normal, and deserving.