warning: high negativity. do regret ever coming here, if u do.

i take that optimism thing back. cuz as usual, shit happens.

The interesting about being in-charge is that, you don't have to do anything to get blamed. you could do something and get blamed, you don't have to. because whatever happens, you were either responsible for causing it to happen, or responsible for not preventing it from happening. Plus, you don't even need to know what's going on! yay!

optimism wont make a difference when the 'cause and effect' thing is in effect. Cuz the consequences must be suffered. And I suffer not peacably, but agonisingly. I'm sorry, i really am. but what can we do now, but to get through it. Hate me, blame me, boycott me later, but NOW, just go along with it, will you? Actually, I'm more sorry for myself than for the rest of you, cuz the rest of you are selfish and you all don't really care for anything anyway.

and to you, i'm starting to detest you for putting me in this position. never asked for it. at least make me one of those who can say it's not my job, i don't know, and i don't care.