down in the valley

I suddenly have this thought, that I shall never go travelling to the faraway places I've always dreamt of visiting. Having seen pictures of those places from friends who've been there, I feel rather envious. But mostly awed, by the sights! There's SO much to see! So much, that I believe I'll only leave that place thoroughly unsatisfied. Maybe I'll do better, admiring from this sunny island. Heh. Afterall, it IS just another place, isn't it? I bet Heaven's a much better place to look forward to.
Well, I guess there's an underlying knowledge that travelling to those faraway places is expensive, so it's not like I can go anyway. Yeah, shikes. Oh well, it shall all be in God's will. =)

I attribute it, and thus give thanks, to God, for His source of strength, that is absolutely reliable. It's been a crazy first 2, and now going on to 3, weeks of school. Last week, as I mentioned before, was busy. I thought 3rd week would be better. But of course, no. It shall be filled with things to do, from morning to night, until Friday again. But look! I'm still alive and well, and not sick whatsoever, except for a little strained voicebox. I'm good! I could be dazed sometimes, but I'm good.
Mostly, it's been tiring, mentally, if not physically. But I think the difference is that I'm enjoying it more. Not so much of duty-bound activities, but things I wanted to do, people I wanted to help. Sometimes, it does seem I'm dumping too much stuff on myself, but in this situation, I'm very sure it is how God wants me to act, to behave, as a Christian. To love and serve others.

Spiritually, I don't think I'm all that good. I could be better. And I haven't been able to think much into it, or figure out much about it. But I still know that God's here for me, and I'm here to acknowledge that. Many things have happened recently, and mellowed me down quite abit. Usually, mellowing down would mean thinking thinking thinking. But I haven't got much time to do that.

At the end of the day, I thank God. I remember being apprehensive about returning to school, feeling that after all the life-changing events, I would still return to the lazy slob that I am. But so far, it's been good. Looking at the overall, God's really been in control!

The past year and a half, has been the darkest, coldest, deep vallley ever. Perhaps, this is the moment I finally find the fresh water streams, to quench my thirst, and renew me.