In the running.

Bah. Yesterday, the first day of school, and.. I was drained at the end of it. Perhaps because it started off with Pharmacology, followed by a 3 hrs sermon-like HRM lecture. And then, lindy; not forgetting that I had to be a lead for 2.5hrs. And also, the fact that there was dance for the past two nights before that. Mental energy sapped to the max. Teaching, getting a 'lil annoyed and impatient, learning, learning more, leading, and leading more. Bah. Enjoying some, I'll admit. But, my energy store is far too low. Must increase that. Somehow.

Gotta make a decision. Choice 1: physics stuff. Choice 2: Organic Chemistry stuff plus presentation, and perhaps group work. HMM. I might just go with Choice 1 and pray and hope not to flunk it. Physics is both easy and difficult, with the latter being more dominant somehow.

So, school finally began for me. Must.Start.Studying.

Recently, the topic of being oppressed or bullied by another popped up somewhere. I think I know what I might do. I already have in store those sarcastic remarks that, in a cool-as-a-cucumber manner, would infuriate that particular foul-mouthed egoistic walking mass of flesh. But, I think to myself, should that be my choice? Or should I, as they say, turn the other cheek? After all, "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me", right? In most cases, it's not, though, especially where the basic pride of our existence is concerned. And words spoken out, words that hurt, remain engraved in our minds. And we never forget.
For at least one point in time in that mental debate, I had this affirmed resolution. That in cases like that, I should remind myself that there is something that person doesn't have, that I do have. And that something makes all the difference. It's God's love in me, that would give me the capacity to love others. It says somewhere, to think of things that are holy and praiseworthy. It was not long ago that I realised truly how helpful that is, to keep check of what I do. It sounds almost inconsequential, but it really is a simple yet effective way to remind myself to live out a good example.

Ah, but it's hard, it's hard. Forget oppression, it's hard enough trying to be good even without provocation.
"Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." 2 Timothy 2:22
I'm wondering if it should be some guiding verse for my life this year. To flee evil, to pursue what is holy and righteous, and all out of a pure heart. Well, just wondering.