I'm feeling very self-righteous, damn. Allow me to b**** about it. I need to.
What I can't accept is blatant atrocities. How can a person claim to be a Christian, yet have little or no regard for people around them? How can a person claim to believe and follow a loving God, and then not show love for others? That person, to me, either doesn't have God, or has too strong a sense of self. So strong, that the love of God has been pushed away.
It's a commandment, if not a natural consequence, to love others. It's not even my choice to make. Once I made the choice to follow Him, that's the commandment that I must obey, and that I want to obey. If I don't feel like I want it, I'll pray to want it.
Ugh, I'm feeling so self-righteous I'm disgusted with myself. But yeah, it pisses me off. I'd rather accept an insane person who hurts everyone around him, than a sane person who doesn't give a damn if that happens. I'd rather accept someone who genuinely isn't aware of it, then someone who knows it and still does it.
Just know I can't accept the statements like "this is me, I can't change it, I don't care etc". It'll be fine if there's a 'for now' in it, a time factor. But as a finality sort of statement, you can gth. We can change; it's a matter of want.
Like I've been saying, I'm feeling damn self-righteous. It's not like I'm much better. But at least I can say I try to understand. I stop myself from diving into reckless rebuttals and surging negative emotions, and just listen and access rationally. Yes I admit do think about what I'd do or say to 'bad people', which is so bad, but I want to say that it's a conscious effort to just be a good example. Not perfect, but I try.
So, at least, try. Not trying and not caring, without any inkling of conscience and hesitation, is like, appalling. I don't even know what to think of it but I do want to take a step away. And, at least, give a damn about it. Feel guilty, or something. Better than nothing.
Sigh. Even for such people, I try to understand them. It's so hard to love another person when there's nothing to love and plenty to hate. But, well, I want to love another person even if there appears to be nothing to love. Because a person has a precious soul, because a person was created uniquely by God, I want to love that person. Would you do the same? Do you want to?
2 comments:
Hihi, was bored. But i disagree with you. I believe that there will always be good and evil in every single person. Just a matter where you tend towards. Anyone can claim to love God and then go out to commit murder.I not saying every can do it, but its not surprising if someone does. Ppl are in gen racists and hypocrites, including myself. Just varying degrees of it. I try to understand other ppl's POV so to avoid misunderstanding and dislike, but sometimes understanding doesnt help, and so i take the approach " do to others as they do to you". We cant love everyone, but there are always other better ppl to us that we can love. haha... wish you set up a tagboard. so much easier to write comments. Take care.
to 'kinetics:' (tho you're SO NOT kinetics): don't want a tagboard, so that ppl will say sthg only when they really wanna say sthg.
True, there's good n evil in everyone; that evil is the 'sinful nature'. As I have learnt recently, it's really a constant struggle between these two, even for Christians who've been truly saved. It's hard, but not impossible. Which is why I say it should be a constant effort, instead of a passive "Oh that's just the way it is, I can't do anything about it." Simply, there's a purpose for all these things I say I want to do; that is, to try to lead a holy life. That's all.
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