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after having read so many people venting their anger through blogs, i thought i should put in some thoughts.

something must have made this people really mad. and desperate to let the whole world know what they're going through. and if i'm not wrong, at least this is true for me, it makes some people think this, "oh no is he/she talking about me? What have I done?"

since it makes people feel bad 'publicly', is it right.

of course it feels good.. right? like, there! I hope this person or these people see this and feel bad. and then I can finally get something out of this.. something good for me.. do me some justice. right?

i feel sad for them. that people around them are so insensitive. maybe i'm one of them. maybe i'm one of the guilty parties. being insensitive, ungrateful, mean, unreasonable.

oops i think i sound quite mean here.. but even though sometimes we expect a certain behaviour from some people, meaning they really shd exhibit that behaviour, we shouldn't really expect anything from them right. it's a two way thing, i guess. one shdnt really expect something, the other shd give without asking. both parties must understand and apply. BOTH. if one is at a disadvantage, .. so?

sometimes, what i do makes people worry for me and care for me, but i dont really complain. cuz i believe if I CHOSE to do something that makes me seem to be at a disadvantage, i should willingly bear the consequences and not complain. i mean, it doesnt make much sense to choose to do something and then complain about the consequences. that's so.. shallow?
there's alot of controversy to such things. maybe in the first place i shouldnt choose to do something that make people worry? and maybe we shouldnt dis-allow people from complaining cuz they ARE suffering so why not let them 'let it out'. but i always have this impression that it's not really good to 'let it out'. cuz it creates a bad atmosphere. CREATE. so, that's not good, right?


why allow anger to control us.