life after this

i was just planning out the time from now til the last day of A'level exams. and it seemed not all that bad. longs breaks in between. take things one at a time. then, it'll be over. in my mind, i thought, yeah there should enough time for me to get prepared for the next few papers during the breaks in between.
this morning during service, i suddenly had this feeling, that tells me, things will turn out just fine. not because everyone says it's easier in A'levels. i just sensed it. ah, knowing myself, i'll probably forget that and worry again.

well well. the first practical is barely two weeks away. the start of the BIG BREAK is slightly less than two months away. i dont know if i'm anxious cos of the exams, or just anticipating the end of it. both, i guess.

on a side note, my body's aching big time cos of badminton with pam and the rest. meaning, i really played it out.. haha. ah i still love the sport. still, whether i like what i do or not, i've never been good at anything. never, really. i am really lousy at badminton, which is why i feel really embarrassed sometimes, cuz it doesnt sound very sensible for me to love it so much but not play considerably well. piano? i dont have that natural talent. so at the end of the day, i am good at one thing. that is, not being VERY good at anything! of course, the measure of 'good' differs for different people. but, whatever. i accepted all these long ago. just that it pops out once in awhile.

ciao