things are getting to me lately. but i will be okay. whether i really get over it, or just ignoring it, no worries. i will be okay. I have been feeling bad about myself for so long but i am always okay someday anyway. so even now at this very moment, i am already alright! and this is also where i confuse myself sometimes. i dont even know whether i have already recovered, or maybe i'm just thinking i have when i havent. makes me feel like i'm fake, in a way. however at certain moments, i think that just doesnt matter at all. if at that particular moment i'm okay, then i'm okay.

to a friend: i know how it feels when i offer help or a listening ear and am turned away. please dont feel hurt when i turn you away because it doesnt necessarily mean i dont want your help or worse, i will be seeking another person's help. no, i'm not confiding in anyone else anyway. perhaps i just didnt feel like explaining things. some things are just so difficult to be put into words. but rest assured, i will be okay.

It's so ironic when an individual gets offended when what was done to him/her, the individual is also guilty of it. and that was my problem. but now i know. and i can be mad at no one else but myself.