Happy Valentine's!

Just a day, an event, an occasion to have us think of the true meaning of love. It IS everywhere. but portrayed via different means and comes from different sources of motives and values and principles. What is right? what is wrong? If it's love, isn't it all the same?

I simply choose to love God wholeheartedly only. And I don't want to say this just to have people read this and think it's something that's just like that. No. It's not just like that. It is a choice taken, knowing that it IS my heart's desire, knowing that it is real, and does NOT hold empty promises. Trusting. Wanting.

Not that others do not love God. but what's really missing, is the passion. The fire burning. Inspiring, urging. Yet, calm, and peace-giving.

We were 'Engage-ing' this morning, 1 to 2am. Grace prayed for me. And there was this cool breeze. And I knew God was in it. I was blind before. Now I know, that He's been calling me to turn back, but I wasn't tuned it. I didn't hear. Even when I was turning, there was always something along the way for me to do. But all I really needed, was to turn my head, and look at Jesus. Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Then, I would have had Him take my hand and walk down the journey.
Yet, I'm afraid. And I anticipate that I will just turn away. Again. and again, and again. Do I fully repent? Is my heart in this? Yes, it scares me.

JUST. Just turn to Him. And trust.

I wondered, what if I knew Jesus when He was on earth. Would he look at me, and speak to me as if I was Just Another person? Would he forget me face the very next moment, as people do? Would He not speak to me, because I'm really boring? Those facial expressions, that always show a sense of boredom. A sense of insignificance. A sense of impatience, because there's always someone else more interesting. Or something.
No. Thank God, no. Jesus will TALK to me. as someone He has always known. His eyes, will not wander, they will be in constant connection. His smile, sincere. Never impatient. Always listening.

This Valentine's, I know I'm not alone. I have Jesus. Who can ask for a better friend?