many many

just blog-surfed several people's blogs, those I've never ever visited 'cos I never knew. And.. so many things are occurring in their lives! It's interesting just to read. There's uncountable possibilities to the things that could happen to them.

And I think, what about me? Have I changed? What would I say if I had blogged everyday?
But what matters if this life I live is pure in His eyes. That's what really matters.

Truth is, there's no time for such reflections, until the end of the week comes. When I come home. When I have the comfort of my room to remind me that I can rest now. And that's when I have the time to think back. A bit too late, isn't it?

I've never felt really homesick when I'm in hall. Maybe because last year, I was away from home, far away in China, for 23 days. So, what's the big deal about staying in school for 5 out of 7 days. I can hardly empathise with friends who say they miss home. But now I realise that spending 2 out of 7 days at home, is really so short. Even just being physically in the house, I don't have to communicate with my family to feel like I'm spending time with them. I just need to BE there. Recently, I've been going back only on Saturday, returning to school on Sunday night. This week, I reminisced about life before uni, and after JC. When I was always at home. Then, I realised I missed just BEING at home. In the house. The colours, the real kitchen (not just a pantry), the toilet (which a really nice shower spray. I like. Haha), the air-conditioning, the convenience of things. Yeah yeah, it'll soon come, exams, and then holidays. Ugh. I really detest being busy with things that keep me away from home and family. I do believe that most of the time, one doesn't have to really literally talk to the family people, but you just gotta be there. That's good enough. To know you're nearby. To know you're alive and breathing and looking well.

Ah stop! This is life, isn't it? The ups and downs. Things we just gotta go through, like it or not. Like I said, it's really no big deal.

Next week, I do hope to come home on Friday.