oh, what? you mean it's over?

So. Christmas came, and went. It was.. just like that, for me. Still, pre-Christmas was really much more eventful than my past years. Too eventful? I dunno.

Now that it's over, I have new workload. or rather, I have to shift my priorities back to the existing workload. Kinetics. What an experience. By the end of yr 2, I'll probably be grateful for the experience, but.. I'll be burnt out as well. At least, I can already see one reward at the end, Phantom of the Opera!

Some time last week, something struck me, and made me feel like I wanted to make my life right, and that I could actually succeed in that. But of course, as usual, the moment passes, and I'm back to feeling resigned to such a life, and if trouble comes, it comes. I felt like I should jump up onto my feet and march through the problems coming, rather than sitting on the couch, waiting for them to come hit me.

Well this Christmas, I accomplished at least one thing. I tidied some parts of my room really quickly, just in time for visiting relatives. well, in the end, they didn't really come in, but it was still a good thing. I could finally walk into my room, and take a glance without wincing at the piles of files and paper and stacks of.. stuff. I went through old stuff, and threw away alot, because, REALLY, I won't be looking at them anymore. And the truth is, even if I miss it later, it'd be too late; there'll be absolutely nothing I can do about it, SO MOVE ON. right. So yes, I threw out old pathetic memories, that I hung onto for too long. Things that wasted my emotions, wasted my hopes, wasted my time, wasted my life.

But of course the cleanup's a progress, but not complete. It's only like, what, 20% of my room? I still have the clothes to settle, not to mention the other junk I placed in the wardrobe as well. There's still the bookshelf, with TOO much nonsense that I haven't thrown away. For everything else, it's also largely disorganised. Well, it was organised once, but over time, I slot things in, and yes it becomes disorganised.
Basically, I have too many things. I have to throw out. And for the rest, I have to make it look organised. Onward!