be gone, scum of the earth. away with you.

So. I've compromised my pride. And I've been nice, when I don't want to. And then I've been insulted in return. But hey, WWJD right? Okay I am sorta pissed, but not as much as I would have expected myself to be. Because, it's simply not worth my time and emotions. And besides, really, what can I do? I've said what I could say, but I can't change the way it is. We just gotta go with the flow, and take things one at a time. one problem, solve it, another problem, solve that. no biggie, right?

Still, I implore you, men, to be smarter and behave like men. Don't think that your every action serves to impress (or not) us ladies. NO. We want you to be mindful of others because that's how a good person should behave. Really, don't give yourself so much credit. Just be a generally good person at least, okay?

Before I go and look at life with peace in my heart, I shall recall something that happened to me. I was really pissed off, and upset and depressed. I was angry. But I wasn't sure if I was angry at myself or someone else. I just knew I was angry and upset. It was those kind of everything-bad mixed together, and plus not telling anyone, and plus having hopes taken away, I was ready to burst into tears. I had enough self-control to prevent that, I didn't want to cry in public again. My post-cry puffy red eyes are hideous. So I selected the double-decker, second-level front most corner seat, just in case. I teared, but it was controllable somehow. It was truly depressing. I just wanted to be home. I was tired of walking away from church, just to go somewhere, except home. I missed home, even if I did nothing productive at home. It was HOME. Finally when I could go home, I couldn't. I was SO looking forward to it! But then I had to leave to somewhere. Okay, I was still going back home, but that was a few hours less at home. mattered alot.
sunday afternoons pass by so fast, it's so unfair.
Right now, I've gotten over it. But I can't wait for all of this to be over. Well, I still have exams coming up, but at least I shouldn't be running around. I could stay put with my books.