I wish I could say that I want to commit to follow God faithfully again. But I have no confidence to speak of. For it's been tried and tested, re-commitment has been repeatedly followed by failure to do so. In every sense of the word "repeatedly". One moment, all hyped up to try again; the next, running away from it. I know I know, gotta be God's strength. right? Only He can change a person, right? Still, nothing's changed for the better.
I wish I could say it, and ask for friends to be accountable for me. But I have no confidence to speak of. I'm incorrigible! What else!
doesn't even seem possible anymore. doesn't feel possible. feels.. 'uncleansable'.
To figure it out, there's endless possibilities to what I really feel, but even I don't know what I truly feel. I evade myself. 0.o
Perhaps the best description, at the end of the day, is that I'm just confused, and lost.
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Hey hozzy!! It's been a really long time since I last visited your blog as I've been busy. Just dropping by to ask how have you been! Haven't seen you for a LONG time gal! ARe we ever gonna meet up again? Hmm. Hope to seeya soon, Really! Take care gal, okays?
LOVEya,
Pam
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