clinging on..

Yep, after all that, I'm still lost. But I can feel the difference. Because I'm still clinging on to the hope, and to the promises of God.

At this moment, I'm very sure that everything in my life is in this particular situation - the 'waiting room experience', as described in the 'Now What?' book. Waiting on the Lord. Frustration's inevitable I guess, as one who has fallen short of the glory of God. And look, frustration came.. and is still here. But as I was saying, wait.

The difference is that, it's not a oh-nehmind-just-push-on-blindly kind of thing. I discovered (rather painfully) that my own blind perseverance isn't exactly helpful anyway. After all, I relied on myself again. But that doesn't mean I don't persevere. It just means that doing anything blindly, is just going nowhere.

Ah, now it sounds like it's all nice and sweet. But truth is, I'm still quite lost. But I'm going to trust in God. And wait.

After all, there's more than one thing in-waiting. I just know that when the right time comes, I'm going to be so overwhelmingly grateful, that.. well.. I can't even comprehend it now.