I wondered if there are people who, perhaps being too sensitive or over-compassionate, put the weight of the world's burdens on their own shoulders, and then, being unable to bear it, decide to take their own lives. Altruistic suicides? It's hard to suppress the surges of overwhelming compassion and helplessness, especially in the dead of the night, and especially in the midst of abundance and wealth and utter complacency by oneself and fellow human beings. From abandoned elderly, to starving children, there's almost nothing an average person can do about it. Even if they say an action goes a long way, we all know that most of the time, the consequences of that action don't get to the intended beneficiary. On the way, if not corruption, there are taxes and processing and all of sorts of procedures that dissipate the money.
Sometimes we are told to do just what we can, and do more for those around you, those that you can actually help directly. Yeah, but how can one just switch their compassion away, when the fact remains that people elsewhere are starving and dying. Indeed, what is the meaning of their lives? Born; live a life that is hardly a life; die.
I thought of the differences between someone who lives in an environment where death is not uncommon, and someone else who has only been through deaths by old age. There very well may not be any difference at all; both could suffer the same extent of loss, only that the former would go through much more pain. Or, the former may be attuned to his losses. In this case, it's scarier, because the worth of a single human's life may be less. Not that I'm concerned about the potential criminality here. It's more about that person's perception of the meaning of life. What point is there, after all, if it's just about entering the world just to suffer and then leave?
Bah. Oh, ignore the above. They come from a person who's currently cynical and tired of things and unholy and just undeserving of anything good. Who just wanted to say her peace. Who just wanted to think about something other than herself.
1 comment:
You know, I think you might be a bit of a hyper sensitive person. Some one who thinks too much and condemns oneself alot due to some reason. I not very sure really, but you also seem to expect alot from yourself. Ha ha... your thoughts seem to reflect some of my own negativity. Cynical thoughts and self-condemnation and all that. Why not research a bit on hyper sensitivity and see if you fit the bill. Then maybe it will help you get by. Im hyper sensitive too tho its a mild case. Its a constant problem i have to deal with everyday so i went to read up on it. It helps to understand it better... And for the record, no one thinks badly of you... The club really loves as does everyone else. So Cheers... :)
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