freewriting

After days and days and days of not being able to do anything with my thesis, I'm suddenly making some progress today. May it never stop.

I suppose taking some strict measures to change my activities worked. Finally, I stuck to my commitments. I don't want to question these changes, to ask why it's appearing to succeed after so long of not succeeding. I just want to believe that it's God, somehow, even if I didn't even ask Him directly. I want to believe that He's changing my heart. May it be true.

So, I may be on a roll now, typing and typing in my thesis. I've resorted to something like a messy model of writing and the "many pages" method of getting myself to go on. I had to get some help from a book. "Writing Your Dissertation in Fifteen Minutes a Day" by Joan Bolker. Well, it's not really important whether the book was super helpful; I just needed a booster somewhere to kick me off my a** and start doing something. But since I adopted her suggestions of "just keep writing", I suppose it was really helpful.

Not to mention that the trip to the library ended up with me coming home, 65% soaked in rain water. Ah, the unpredictable weather, it was blazing hot when I left! So, the books had better be helpful.

Oh, happy valentine's, or friendship day, as some would have it. I spent the day working on my thesis, and of course, about half hour on the piano. Speaking of the piano, I really do love the piano even though I don't excel in playing it. I know that getting rid of it would clear up space in my room for some better use, but I can't and I won't. It's gonna stay, it's gotta stay. =)

I hope my mysterious source of motivation for the thesis hasn't gone. I'm kinda still writing anyway, right? Myxomas, sarcomas, blahblahblah. 6000 words is not easy. I've had people saying, Oh 6000 words? Not a lot lah. Maybe that's true, maybe one day in the future I'll eat my words, 6000 words could be a breeze in the future, at least I hope so. But for now, I rejoice at every 20 words! Hah!

May the force be with me.