okay, so we filmed yesterday and today, 2 pairs so far. That's perhaps 1/3 way done. And it wasn't so difficult. Rather smooth and fun too. So, I thought, maybe, Maybe plans do work out! For once, I could safely note down time slots, and say, hm who's next?

And then. Bad things never fail to be kept out of sight. Tonight's filming was cancelled Extremely last minute. Because of me, plans were changed. Now that it's cancelled, we know those plans needn't have changed. Actually, because of him.. but I just feel that as the In Charge, everything and anything that goes wrong, HAS to be somewhat my fault in some way or another.

I'm sorry Dad, Kor, Wilfred, Emily.

So, I guess I should have checked the WorldCup schedule and find out that Germany is playing against Argentina. But I don't really care!!! Because this fateful match, on this fateful night, led to the planning of a fateful outing, hence cancelling the fateful filming. And thus, it troubled a fateful family, and some fateful friends. and that's one too many 'fatefuls'.

I'm actually rather surprised with myself. After all these time of impossible organising, and with this very hard-hitting incident, I'm still sane. I have not smashed anything fragile. have not torn out my pillows. have not broken pencils. have not screamed. have not cried. Although, inside of me, it's really..noisy and full of chaos. I guess,.. I guess I have..gotten used to it. All I can do is, sigh, and look up, to face this ugly world, and accept it for what it is. Accept her, accept the people in her who really are out to make life (not their own) miserable. Be made miserable, and live life making the best out of misery.