Sometimes when things are screwed up, and then things change, things remain screwed up anyway. so there's really no difference at all.

And I'm sure there were times when I was more tired than this, but just let me say this, I've never been more tired for so long. I don't really know if that's true for me, but I can't be bothered to figure out the past. I'm just tired. mentally, physically.. all the "-ly"s. But the problems don't go away. And everything just goes on and on and on and on....

I sound REALLY incoherent, but what the hell.

I'm a student, for goodness sake!!! but I don't seem to be doing stuff students should do, like doing homework, reading textbooks, doing more work. I'm busy doing other things. COME ON, I'm here to study and get a freakin' degree, so give me a break. gets on my nerves. "pisses me off", in yy's words.

And people, do keep your radars up for emotional vampires around you. AND other people who are just out to make your life miserable. ppl who, say nothing but bad stuff. Those bad stuff may or may not be true, but they don't say it to encourage, they say it so that they can feed on your self-pity and self-blame. NO. Don't give in. Accept the reasonable comments, but don't let the spite get to you. Or you will just drain out. Let us not speak of them; but look, and pass on.

..sometimes it's hard to see the beauty in this place.